Keep Calm and Carry On

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I know this saying and print have been around FOREVER and to be honest I have found it a bit annoying because I see it all the time. But I do enjoy the "spoofs". But these last few weeks and days, especially, it has been playing in the back of my head.

I am currently 40 weeks and 2 days pregnant...yes which means I'm overdue. With my daughter I was 4 days early because I had pre-eclampsia so they had to induce me. It came out of no where and I have been hoping this whole pregnancy that I would just go into labor on my own. But now I just want a baby on the outside of my body. I am officially on maternity leave from my day job and my mother is here for a month to help so I feel it's a perfect time for baby to arrive but instead he is being stubborn. I was told if he does not come on his own I will be induced next week. It's nice to have a definite end date but I really don't want to have to wait that long. It's also really hard because this pregnancy has just been more intense and difficult than my first. The first trimester I could barely function because of morning sickness and extreme exhaustion. Now I can barely walk due to nerve pain...oh and my ginormous belly :) I have contractions off and on but they go now where and I'm a hormonal mess. I've broken down a few times these last couple of weeks for lots of reasons related to this pregnancy but currently it's the feeling that I'm wasting time. I feel like everything is in place and since he isn't here I shouldn't be sitting at home I should be doing something. Well more like I only have so much time off from my day job and I feel like I'm wasting that time since I could technically be working that job right now.

 I'm trying to take my mom's advice and use this time to get some of Munchkin's birthday party projects done (I am a last minute person, which always leads to stress and chaos the night before her birthday parties) and also get stuff photographed and ready to go for both the shops. It is nice to get "ahead" or at least not behind or rushing to photograph and list things but still I have so many things I want to add to my shops but I'm trying to be realistic therefor I am holding off on listing stuff until after the baby comes so I will have a better idea of how my days are going to go. But the longer I wait for baby the more anxious I get. So I just chug along and try to be patient and more positive than negative.

I really just needed to vent and get that off my chest. Thank you for letting me have a post to do that with.

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I will be featuring some new products and new designs next week (trying to get some of those post ready in case I do actually have the baby) so check back!!!